6 days ago
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Well, I knew that our lilacs are just coming out and that's when I started this blog so I looked back and sure enough, my first post was May 30. So, how is it going?
Well, I had a few goals... to model writing for my youngest daughter was one goal. I can't say that I modeled effectively. My writing was pretty sporadic. But Kaylin does see the benefit of good writing and has asked to continue with our writing at home even though she is in public school. So, that's good. I have been disappointed at the lack of writing instruction in all of Emily's public school classes. It's so important and so neglected. Sigh...
I also wanted a place to write down my thoughts, just for me. Well, that has been harder for me to accomplish. I have only shared this blog IRL with a couple of people and that's just because some photos wouldn't go through their email and they could at least see them here. So even tho nobody I know IRL is reading this, I am still so aware of offending people, or letting people see too much. So my writing has been generic, to say the least. I think the problem is I lean towards criticism. It's the ugly reality I try to hide/ work on/ avoid. I always hear, "If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all." So, I don't say anything at all... I just think it. Ugh...
I also want to use this space to support and receive support from the international adoption community. As our process goes on and on, I know that support will be critical for my sanity.
So, new goals for the next year.
1) model writing for my daughter
2) be more authentic/ open up more
3) visit more adoption blogs and comment on them - try to find a community of support
That's it. Not hard. Just do it.